Morning … finally, all maths paper over, including SPM Add Maths. Totally no tuition for 2 weeks or so. I m redundant without my classes. Wonder what I will do if I m to retire early as I planned? Hehe …
Bowling
Last night I played three games — league, for SHADOW’s team. Just for the fun and friendship sake, I m back into the CPS league. I helped the team to win against Nora’s team. I beat Nora(2nd best female player in Sabah!!) 3-1. Hehe.
TEH
I am on HOLIDAY till end of the month. Will only be back next month! Hehe. But, I m active in my trading blog. For pleasure reading … go to //cpteh.blogspot.com
Bowling vs Trading
Have you ever been to bowling alley and play a game or two? If u never, ever wonder WHY NOT?
Have you ever been ‘trading’ and buy a stock or two? If u never, ever wonder WHY NOT?
Assuming you have(otherwise, WHY would u be reading my trading blog??!), have you ever been LUCKILY strike(all ten pins down in one throw. By the way, if u are wondering how many pins there is in a rack, it is TEN, that is why they called it 10-pin bowling)? What is your first reaction when you STRIKE? You will jump with joy(like a monkey, I would say … and disrupting me playing on the lane beside! Ha).
Assuming you have, have you ever LUCKILY bought a counter and WIN the trade? Is your re-action similar of getting a strike? Ha!
But, many more throws you dont get strikes, left a few … or many beginners will throw it into ‘longkang’. They NEVER ask WHY!! Ever wonder why they NEVER ask WHY?
But, many more trades you dont win big, lose a bit … or many beginners will throw their money into KLSE ‘hole’. They NEVER ask WHY!! Ever wonder why they NEVER ask WHY?
They look around … and they saw this youngster who know how to CURL(we called it hook) the ball into the pins(pockets, actually) … they will think, WOW he knows how to CURL the ball. That is cool … he must be very good!! Haha. So stupidly naive!
They look around … and they found this blog, who know how to write(we called it blogging) about the trades … they will think, WOW he knows how to write a trading blog. That is cool … he must be very good!! Haha. You are naive if u think so.
In their mind, they will be thinking … hey, if i know how to curl the ball like him, I could play good too. And i can impress my friends!! I will learn just that, it cant be THAT difficult.
In their mind, they will be thinking … hey, if i know how to write a trading blog like him, I could trade well too. And I can impress many around!! I will learn just that, writing only ma … won’t be THAT difficult.
So, they quietly read some bowling books or watching few bowling videos. Ah ha!! They said I just need to release my thumb at 10 o’clock and it will curl by itself!!
So, they quietly read some trading books or reading some blogs. Ah ha!! They said I just need to mention a few trading jargons and it will SEEN as impressive!!
They will go to the bowling alley, and try out the techniques. After a few frustrating throws, the ball doesnt curl, and they even hurt their fingers. Damn. Stupid book … how could they NOT telling me the TRUTH. I just want to get a strike, who cares what bowling is!! Dont tell me about pockets, pre-shots, 5-steps, where to stand, which boards to throw, bending my sliding kness(what!! Bend knee for WHAT), balancing, follow-through, breathing techniques, … to increasing the leverages, carrying, messengers, oil-conditions(short long), gutters … etc etc … STOP!!! I just want to get a STRIKE, WHY u are telling me all these!! Teach me how to CURL the ball. I know what 10 o’clock thumb release is, ok?? Without realising, frustration getting into your head, you will NEVER bowl well ….
They will go to trading ground, and try out the trading system they read. After a few frustrating trades, the trade doesnt work, and they even hurt their pockets. Damn. Stupid book … how could they NOT telling me the TRUTH. I just want to earn some money, who cares what trading is!! Dont tell me about volumes, stop-loss, averaging, doji, economics, inflations, interest rates, supply-demand, commodities prices, indicators, xxxx , etc etc. STOP!! I just want to get a WIN in my trade, WHY are you telling me all these!! Teach me how to win a TRADE, better still just tell me WHAT to BUY. I know what buying a stock is, ok? Without realising, frustration getting into your head, you will NEVER trade well ….
And they wonder WHY they never be able to beat that old-man who is playing a straight unfancy ball, using 10 pounds yet winning small tournaments, oftenly!!
And they wonder WHY they never be able to beat that un-educated old-man who is trading without any fancy softwares, using common sense yet winning in small trades, oftenly!!
TEH : I m a bowler … I used 2 yrs to decide if I m seriously taking up bowling, then I registered with a bowling club in Cheras(one-five), playing with the experienced bowlers, learning how to bowl well. I read many bowling books for 3 years … and without fail, asking coaches around and share their views. Today, I may no longer very active in competitive tournaments but with GOOD strong foundation, I could easily beat those majorities. So, personally I m applying what I hv achieved in bowling for my trading. I see the parallel. 
morning … quite sleepy as i played bowling last night. It has been weeks i didnt play a game. Anyway, i squad for the coming 9-pin tap competition which only opens to Yellow, Blue and Green categories (average <185). I m in Yellow category and no handicap for me. Others will have 10 and 15 hcps respectively. Anyway, i played 935 for 4 games, averaging 233+, which may not be good enough to qualify. Since the tournament will be held AFTER RAYA, i shall squad again, if i could find the time. Hmmm … the pressure is higher as i rated as one of the favourite! The prize money is rm1200 only. But, to be humble, i will be glad if i could get into top5.
Well, Juandi, Jeffery, Fred Yap and Rahim have been upgraded to RED category. They are surely a better player than me(and as they play every week/day). Phew! Need not to compete with them …
England beat the minnow Andorra 2-0. NOt impressive at all … they might NOT be able to qualify for next world cup?
The cruncher is this weekend where the REDS will be meeting the DEVILS. This is much more anticipated than 916 gov! Haha
TEH
Morning … a day to go for our BUDGET to be announced. Previously, i m not really interested in such events, but if u r into investing/trading, these events bring much impact on KLSE. So, you need to watch out!
Liverpool
I woke up about 3am to watch the CL’s game … 70th minute it is still 0-0, no show like KLSE …. once in a while, there is anxiety moment(like MMCCorp, Gamuda stories …). I went back to bed and read that they beaten the Belgium team with the narrow 1-0 after extra time!! Haha… tell me, how are they going to win ANYTHING this year with such performance so far. 1-0 vs Sunderland, 2-1 vs Borough and now … LUCKY to win?
Bowling
I m not sure if the Sutera’s league going to start tonight as they have postposed it. I hv a class tonight, so i couldnt play anyway … But, i need to see if i m FIT enough to challenge Sabah’s best in this coming Sabah Closed competition on Sunday!! I need to squad to qualify …
Tenants
Our tenant for a month is an Uncle who is working with KC Tan(Southern Bakery). Today, someone finally booked the other room. He is working with Tractors Malaysia. Phew … it is not easy to get someone who want to stay with two young babies around and also not easy to please Mag as she doesnt want anyone she dont feel comfortable staying in. Hmm …
There is a teacher(lady) of All Saints School came to look for the room yesterday … and after half-hour inspecting and asking hundreds of questions, she said she will ask her husband first. Sigh … i admire Mag’s patience entertaining her. I was teaching at home, otherwise i will squeeze her minor brain. Hey, u r renting a ROOM, why inspecting the kitchen, the back of the house or even OUR toilets??! Even asked about my tuition schedule? Arrghh … i dislike ladies, especially gloomy no-life ladies. She even has the guts to ask if she will be safe to stay there!! Meaning? I might rape her? I will ‘rape’ her small mind, and ask her to get REAL.
As expected, she doesnt even bother to call as we guess she is not satisfied. If i ever go to ALL SAINTs school, and see her around, i might get my chance to ASK her many insignificant questions. Perhaps, she could understand how irritating she is …
TEH
morning … nothing much to blog as i m busy, nervous and tired.
Tonight got the crucher game … we need to play 200+ average and hope KS’s team play below par. Otherwise, we settle for 2nd position.
Trading : Looking at the REDs, i think KLCI will retrace further … but if i could get Kinstel below 1.15, i will nibble a little. 5000 units? Will call OSK later.
Trading : Kinstel is still steady at 1.20+ level … Kwantas bottoming. ALERT!! Also, scomi is moving sideway … waiting for signals? If Liondiv moving below 1.10, i might consider to accumulate it. With limited ammunitions, i could only buy a little. Most of my $$ stucked inside liao … patience. YAN YAN YAN! Hehe
Sam Lee Sheng Jie - Zui Jing
你最近不说话
怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福
Ni Zui Jing Bu Shuo Hua
Zen Me Le Wei Shen Me
Shi Bu Shi You Shen Me Shi Rang Ni Bu Kuai Le
Ting Shuo Ni Zui Jin Hen Gu Dan
You Dian Luan You Dian Huang
KeShi Wo Que Bu Neng Gou Zai Ni De Sheng Pang
Ni Xiang Yao De Wo Que Bu Neng Gou Gei Ni Wo Quan Bu
Wo Neng Gei De Que Bu Shi Ni Xiang Yong You De
Wo Men Bu Shi He Ye Bu Xiang Ren Shu
Hao Ji Ci Wo Men Bao Zhe Pi Ci Dou Shi Xiang Yao Ku
Ni Chang Jie Shi Zhe Yang De Yi Qie Dou Zhi Shi Kai Shi
Wo Jue De Shi Suo You De Yi Qie Zao Jiu Yi Jie Shu
Bu Xiang Zai Yue Su Bu Yao Zai Tong Ku
Xia Yi Ci Hui You Geng Hao De Qing Lu
Ai Wo Que Bu Neng Gou Gei Ni Wo Quan Bu
Wo Neng Gei De Que You Bu Shi Ni Xiang Yao Yong You De
Wo Men Bu Shi He Ye Bu Xiang Ren Shu
Hao Ji Ci Wo Men Bao Zhe Pi Ci Dou Shi Xiang Yao Ku
Ni Chang Jie Shi Zhe Yang De Yi Qie Dou Zhi Shi Kai Shi
Wo Jue De Shi Suo You De Yi Qie Zao Jiu Yi Jie Shu
Bu Xiang Zai Yue Su Bu Yao Zai Tong Ku
Xia Yi Ci Hui You Geng Hao De Qing Lu
Zhe Yi Ci Wo Men Dou Neng Hen Xing Fu
TEH
noon … some re-bounds yesterday but still no signal of reverse. Bears will be around for a while … a few months or till next year … or much longer! So, no trading activity for a novice like me, sure kena baham la. Dont play-play pandai, ya. Hehe
Candlestick NOT easy to learn … also arr, it is NOT accurate la. I hv tested with few counters(Gamuda, WCT, Parkson …) for past 2 months and i made many WRONG assumptions. If i use REAL money into it, i will sure bengang with my bodoh-ness. Perhaps, i hv much more to learn … i will diligently continue to educate myself …. hmm … wish i can attend some tuition classes. I believe they will charge rm2k per hour!
Bowling
Tonight we will play against the top team, KS Lai’s team. If we can beat them, we will be the champ for third consecutive season!! But it will be down to the wire, yet again … we are leading only by a fraction of a point. If we lose tonight, we hv to settle for 2nd. I m not sure if there will be next season as many teams pulling out and they might not hv enough team to hv the league on. I hope i do not even use my Thu night for tuitions. I need to hv a break … and i feel relax while playing bowling! Hehe …
KFC Tg aru Wifi
Dinner here … a silent place, indeed. Good. Just smiles from the waiters/waitress here. But, how do you ’say’ I DONT WANT BREAST MEAT … in sign language? Breast? Chest? i think they can understand … only we are ‘bengkok’, thinking of breast(showing your two cupped hands! LOL) … i clapped to my chest, and they understood! Hehe. I m too tired to write … off for my game. Chao.
TEH
morning … Gamuda moved up 20cents and being the most active counter yesterday. Market still bearish … need to be cautious but if we pick the ‘right’ stocks at its low, we need to be patient to wait for it to appreciate. Counters like Resorts and Genting are everyone’s favourite. Many at is low too .. but as a saying goes, cheap can go cheaper!! That is what happened to SCOMI that i bought(at 0.985), and currently at 0.53. Do you consider it at trading at CHEAP level? Its NTA is 0.77(the latest AR 08) … and it is overly sold. Yeah right … if you thought it is cheap, wait till someone rape somebody and market will shake with it!
SODOMY? Haha … you may laugh your fat ass off but they are still playing that scene. Cant believe such immaturity of our MPs and VIPs. The concentration is never in development of our country — education, economy, infrastructure etc etc — but we are now drawn to front page of newspaper, looking forward to some sort of drama. Perhaps, someone will claim that someone in the opposition corner is sodomising/raping someone in somewhere … nope, we dont need proof … we have good actors/actress in our cabinet!! ARGHHHH … really pissing me OFF!
So, that is what happen to our stock-markets, it shakes according to the shakes of someone’s ass.
10.30am
I hv been reading many trading blogs recently and get to know three so-called expert-traders. Their full-time job is trading, reading charts and read news — etc etc. And being PAID for it. I m not … in fact, i m paying expensive lessons in experiencing the ride with KLSE. Zrrrooommmm … we are move down from the high of 1500 to 1100 in 6 months time. I dislike roller-coaster. Sigh.
Anyway, Gamuda is still gathering many interests and still the most active counter traded since the opening. Scomi is up and busy with many suitors too … i could only watch at the sideline and trying to understand the WHYs … hmm … when i read the EDGE on Sunday(spent 3 hours digesting many biz.news), i know VERY CLEARLY that Gamuda will be targetted(before that, i hv read a research report about GAMUDA — the call is BUY BUY BUY) … retail investors like me will depends mostly from news, reports or hear-say. It is kinda ‘risky’ if u dont know what you are reading/hearing, tho. Back to Gamuda … I dont know when the buying will stop — it moved up from 2.20 level to 2.70 level now. It doesnt need to make any sense trading in KLSE … we need more INSTINCTs(females hv this much more than male species), we need GUTS(males claiming they have more of this) and … a little of LUCK? Damn … i m for one a non-believer of LUCK(all is in your own hands blah blah) but someone ’smart’ told me the element of LUCK is also needed in trading!!
I would like to equate TRADING with my BOWLING!
Bowling : you may be playing for many years, not know any theories but still going for competitions. MANY of Sabah’s bowlers are in this category — once you spend many hours and $$$ playing endlessly, throwing the ball(tho u may NOT know WHY you get a strike or how you spare etc etc), you will get the hang of it and you will average 170(stagnant) and go into competition as once in a while, u might win something. This is being anolog to the traders(like me now) who trade(buy/sell) without knowing WHY you buy/sell … once you get the hang of it, from so-called experience, you will continue to trade(it can be addicted) as once in a while you win ’something’.
I categorised this bowler as novice and they will never go beyond their 170 level. Because i realised that 10yrs ago before i took up the game seriously, i make a commitment to LEARN the theories, use and practise it on the lanes and continue to LEARN from the better knowledgable bowlers. I hv graduated from the ‘novice’ level and proudly say that i could beat ANY novice anytime(at 90% confidence level) …
Now, i need to apply the similar strategies in my trading!! GET OUT OF BEING NORM! That is wat i m trying to do … at the moment i m strrugling as i m like in the trial-and-error period. I m confused most of the time … so, i need to find WHAT suits ME, my personality. For exmaple, i have played spinner before(with average of 180 but after two years?) … but i still opt for a simple straight( not beautiful to watch) ball which i could play consistently(even without much practice). That are strong basics with applications. If i could learn most of the theories available, diligently studying the concepts(and TRY to understand the pros-cons) … may be, one day I might be able to tell the difference. Maybe someday i could apply it successfully in my trading and will TEACH according to what i have achieved. Not many will agree …. but by going against the norm, i believe we could be ourselves. To heck with the mass.
TEH
morning — the new CPS league starting tonight but i have to declined Fred invitation to play for his team. I will hv a tuition class on Tuesday nights, so i dont think so i could be in the team. So, i will only be playing occasionally at Sutera. I hope i wont give-up bowling someday due to my tight schedule(with classes). Bowling is the way i relax … with some of my friends.
EURO 2008 reaching its semis : Germany, Turkey, Russia and Spain. I did not watch any of the games, not even a repeat. Well, i dont like watching football, actually. Unless the team i support playing (Liverpool and England). New season of the EPL will starts in AUG … till then, football is out of my system.
I went to see the Bandar Seirra apartments on Sat. I do like the place there, about 5 km away from our new campus(due next june, we were told). After discussing with Mag, we decided to hold on to our old rented place as it is near KK city and also near my current working place, STTSS. During the recession, CASH is KING. Many stocks will be at its bottom … and houses will be sold ‘cheap’ly. So, i need to be patient. BUT, the worry will be the increase of the construction materials(by 30% so far … steel, cement and transportation) … houses built in future will NOT be any cheaper. Today you cant really find a decent new home below 200k.
Anyway, i will wait till my two kids bigger … they need to go to ‘nearby’ schools.
OPEN DAY will be held next month … i m glad that i m not in the Maths Group! Phew. I m placed under ISODOC … these students will help in everything relating to the open day, generally. I will be looking into the so-called ’special effects’ during the opening ceremony.
Well, so i hv finished ONE document — the Lesson Plans for SAM. I need to continue to finish all the bugging paperworks.
TEH
morning … it is still gloomy upstairs. I m blurred by the going-ons surround me as i m XXX tired keeping up.
Comments
Hey Vui, thanks for the nice comment — once in a while, getting such nice messages reminds me that i m still alive! Haha. I m buried under piles of paperwork at the moment, actually. Thanks … yah, i like "monkey see, monkey do" as that is what happening and what is going-on most of the time. I m coping with it and coping could be stressful, you know. Anyway, nice of you … wish u all the best, ya. Please do keep in touch as i treasure those nice students like u! Hehe … MSN? I hv just added you! But i seldom go online after school hours.
I received a nice e-card from my ex-ex-student of INTI last week or so, and it makes my day! Ok, at least i lasted a day! Haha.
Politics
SAPP’s Yong Teck Lee making a political move and it might shaken further the BN’s loosing grips. Such unwarranted news will only creates bad sentiment for share-market in Malaysia. I read that some PAS youth protesting about Ella holding a concert? Hmm … the instabilities in current Malaysia politic scene will not go well with small-traders like me. We are sinking fast … disappearing soon. To incite the pain further, the escalating cost of living will surely stress all bread-winners ut. ARRGHHH … i m growing more white-hairs and i cant even walk straight up! The shoulders suddenly feel so … heavy. Sigh.
Well, better not say anything if i hv nothing to say.
[Chorus:]
Shawty had them Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 1:]
I ain’t never seen nuthin that’ll make me go,
this crazy all night spendin my dough
Had a million dollar vibe and a bottle to go
Dem birthday cakes, they stole the show
So sexual, she was flexible
Professional, drinkin X and ooo
Hold up wait a minute, do i see what I think I
Whoa
Did I think I seen shorty get low
Ain’t the same when it’s up that close
Make it rain, I’m makin it snow
Work the pole, I got the bank roll
Imma say that I prefer them no clothes
I’m into that, I love women exposed
She threw it back at me, I gave her more
Cash ain’t a problem, I know where it goes
She had them
[Chorus:]
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack
[Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 2:]
Hey
Shawty what I gotta do to get you home
My jeans full of gwap
And they ready for Shones
Cadillacs Maybachs for the sexy grown
Patrone on the rocks that’ll make you moan
One stack (come on)
Two stacks (come on)
Three stacks (come on, now that’s three grand)
What you think I’m playin baby girl
I’m the man, I’ll bend the rubber bands
That’s what I told her, her legs on my shoulder
I knew it was ova, that Henny and Cola
Got me like a Soldier
She ready for Rover, I couldn’t control her
So lucky oo me, I was just like a clover
Shorty was hot like a toaster
Sorry but I had to fold her,
Like a pornography poster
She showed her
[Chorus:]
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
[Verse 3:]
Whoa
Shawty
Yea she was worth the money
Lil mama took my cash,
and I ain’t want it back,
The way she bit that rag,
got her them paper stacks,
Tattoo of bubba cray,
I had to handle that,
I was on it, sexy woman, let me shownin
They be want it two in the mornin
I’m zonin in them rosay bottles foamin
She wouldn’t stop, made it drop
Shorty did that pop and lock,
Had to break her off that gwap
Gah it was fly just like my glock
[Chorus:]
Apple Bottom Jeans [Jeans]
Boots with the fur [With the fur]
The whole club was lookin at her
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low
Them baggy sweat pants
And the Reeboks with the straps [With the straps]
She turned around and gave that big booty a smack [Ayy]
She hit the flo [She hit the flo]
Next thing you know
Shawty got low low low low low low low low…..
TEH
morning … just out of a 8am class with the SAM — slightly worry as we are ’slow’. Hope to give few extra classes on Sat.
Anyway, i m anxious to look into KLSE — it is NOT everyday event where our share market drops 30points in a day(due to the announcement of the petrol hike), and crazy buying to push it up 20+ points the next day! So, today is an interesting trading ’show’. Showtime started at 9am with MOST of the counters in RED. Profit-taking is going on, i thought. TIME TO BUY??? Beeepp …
Bowling
There is a ’small’ competition last night — DOUBLES. One Yellow category players and above + another below Yellow category player. I m in the Yellow(unfortunately) … so, i SMS my good friend David to partner me. Haha … we both seldom practise la but he is OK. On … only 12 pairs registered and i m very happy to get to play with him. David, loong time no see … you mana pergi? Haha. We speak in Malay as he is a Kadazan-Muslim. Well, he played very well (192 average — well above his normal 175 average game!) but i played below my own level(182 average only) … we got no 3, and only 11 pins behind the 2nd place(Paul Thien and Haji Md). I m satisfied … winning some money is a bonus, but a good friend still willing to partner me, priceless! Hehe
Ok … off to KLSE’s morning show ..
Done with the show — KLSE in RED … alert.
KL Trip
I will be in KL on Thu night, flying immediately after my INTI class. Then, will be at Sheraton Subang Jaya for the SAM’s Maths Lecturer workshop on Friday. Sheraton … it gives me a memory. Well, too personal to be written here as many preying eyes/ears around. As i mentioned, this page is no longer personal, i couldnt speak my mind and it is my own doing.
I hv noticed that the number of clicks per day have drastically dropped — meaning the number of readers/viewers reduced? Yes, my blog is so boring these days. LOL. Yup, i m writing again … and migrating to my own PERSONAL site soon — it will be by invitation only. Haha.
Anyway, i will be back on Sat evening, missing the morning Grad Day. But, luckily i didnt miss the IS Nite on Sunday. Not that i like such a crowd(dislike it, actually) but i like seeing the students performing!! Some are really talented. Oh yah, it is cum teachers day too. Hope they will give us the huge towel again. It is practical. Or perhaps give us petrol vouchers? Haha
well, i hv been ‘missing’ as i could not feel myself. I m merely existing, like millions of humanoids. I m tensed and nervous. Perhaps, it is a verrry long wait … for my baby Charlene. Mag doing check-up and doctor said she shown lack of motion. Am i worried?
King of wishful thinking by Go West
I don’t need to fall at your feet
Just ‘cause you cut me to the bone
And I won’t miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I refuse to give in to my blues
That’s not how it’s going to be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don’t want to let you see.. no
That you have made a hole in my heart
And now I’ve got to fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I will never, never shed a tear for you
I’ll get over you
If I don’t listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
I’ll pretend my ship’s not sinking
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’m the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won’t shed a tear for you
I’ll be the king of wishful thinking
I’ll get over you..
I’ll pretend my heart’s still beating
‘cause I’ve got no more tears for you
I’m the king of wishful thinking..
I’ll get over you.. I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I’ll tell myself I’m over you
‘cause I’m the king of wishful thinking
TEH
it is almost 2pm — just for the record, i didnt play well in the last 3 games of 9-pin tap as i hv difficulties with lane 1&2. I should hv experience enough but perhaps long time i did not compete. I was positioned at 5(of 48 players) after game 9. Oh yes, i played a perfect 300 for the game 9. That is my 2nd 300(9-pin, of coz) in a competition.
Will take a break from bowling too. Enough.
one of my fav group — OASIS
Stop Crying Your Heart Out <— i m telling myself
Hold up
Hold on
Don’t be scared,
You’ll never change what’s been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don’t be scared, (don’t be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,
‘Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You’ll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out
Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I’m not scared)
You’ll never change what’s been and gone
‘Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You’ll see them some day,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out
‘Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You’ll see them someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out
We’re all of the stars,
We’re fading away.
Just try not to worry,
You’ll see us someday.
Just take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out… [4x]
TEH
noon — i squad with Guslin last night. I did not ‘yue’ him but happened that he is there. Anyway, gllad to hv a friend to play with. I was tired after INTI class from 4 to 6pm. But, that is never my excuse.
I played extremely well to qualify for tomorrow’s final. Those in KK and reading this can watch me play vs many top sabah bowlers there. I m positioned no 5 currently(of 80+ squadded so far). Most importantly is to qualify. I did with total pins of 931 + 40(hcps) over 4 games.
10-pins : 206 and 192 and 9-pin-tap 265 and 268. Fantastic.
Hope i could hold myself in a piece and do well tmr night. I will just play myself — target to be in top 10, again.
Ok, that is for the record. Have a nice weekend. I m off for lunch.
TEH
morning … went to do the weekly wet-marketing, bringing Mag and Er to the nearby pasar. I guess few of the aunties’ stall could recognise me by now. "lau she" … they called me. Errr … sound weird being called ‘teacher’ by aunties whom i do not teach!! Even when my students address me that way, i feel ‘awkward’? Hmm … i should be used to it after 18 years of teaching? In fact i started teaching(giving tuition) since i was form 5/6, to my neighbours’ kids. BUt, officially i started teaching in Stamford in 1990, APRIL. Currently i m into my second year with Sinaran. I do like it here … maybe just that my passion for Maths is waning … or is it teaching?
Anyway, Happy ‘lau she’ day to me! Hehe
To Orange
Comment : I do not disagree that academic results is VERY important to success. BUT, it all boils down to what you term SUCCESS as. If success = money, , status, power …. then, yes. MAYBE you might turn out to be a doctor/specialist or whatever highly-demanded desgination BUT even that does not guarantee money, status or power you crave for. You see, as human we will become GREEDIER. Your human/inhumane values changed as you ‘move-up’. From a naive you, you might turn into a cunning person, playing the tune according to the society, in the name of SUCCESS. Look how innocent/naive you were when you were 5 yrs old? Today you hv mastered the skills of giving excuses or blaming, no longer NATURAL(with your emotions), etc etc … what we all ADULTS condone. We hv ‘accepted’ lies or bribery as part of our lives(to certain extend). How many of us talk about HUMAN values these days? Hmm…
It is an interesting debate … i attended one by my students before … speaking about the pros/cons of EDUCATION TO THE ROAD OF SUCCESS. It is debatable. Because most PARENTS(subset of a society) seeing RESULTS is important, it makes ME very stupid if i say RESULTS is not everything. It is like we all going out and tell people that MONEY is not everything. It is important but not EVERYTHING? Tell that to anyone these days … MONEY is THE ONLY thing in their lives!! RESULTS is the ONLY THING in students lives!! When the students graduated, MONEY, STATUS and POWER take over! And the cycle continues …
To me EDUCATION is the most important part of growing up. Education starts when we were 2 yrs old … and it starts from home. Nothing to do with exams, it is all pleasure of learning. Learning process is education. Failing a Maths exams is education. Playing a volleyball game is education(winning or losing is part and parcel of playing) — how you take it and such. Can students stand up and tell me they ENJOY going to school as they find the subjects they are learning in school are interesting and widening their knowledge? I could continue to open-up a debate on how INCORRECT our society sees EDUCATION. Our students no longer enjoy learning in schools anymore(compares to 20/30 yrs ago!). Teachers NO LONGER enjoy teaching in schools. To them, it is like ‘no choice’, or it pays for my living or got longer holiday ma? Teachers stand up … tell me that you LOVE EDUCATION, you teach because you ENJOY seeing the youngsters learn some knowledge from you. You are proud and touched as today is teacher’s day — to recognise your teachings!! Arrghh … i m very doubtful about the sincerity of my UNEDUCATED society — students and teachers alike. At least i cant proudly say that i do enjoy what i m doing! Not many in working adults enjoy what they are doing, fyi. It is like not many students enjoy what they are learning from school. Or am i wrong? Hmm …
For your info, i was fascinated with Maths and Geography … so, i studied the universal Maths, … and global world’s geography!! I do not really bother much about the syllabus(till one month before PMR/SPM/STPM exams). I studied for knowledge … while failing in my school’s exams! It is NOT wise, obviously. That is plain STUPID, many reminded me. But i think i enjoy studying more than some of my friends who get all the ’A’s?! I dont feel stress doing Maths 4hours/day?! Hehe …
—–pause—- Hmm … i better put a pause here, otherwise i could be VERY cheong-hei la. Haha
Sutera
I played badly last night … 168, 200 and 154. The third game cost the team to lose two valuable points. Hmm … hope i could redeem myself next week. As we drew 2-2, the top team(KS’s) lost 0-4 to the Sukma’s youngsters. So, we should be climbing back to no 1 spot!! Yeah …
你是我所有的回憶 - 齊豫 <— what a beautiful song! Tell me, HOW many teachers do you know who enjoy songs, keep up with the latest of songs while appreciating this old classic? And i m not even chinese-ed. I self-learned Mandarin!! Today, i could read simple characters!! Enjoy …
(李泰祥 曲﹐侯德建 詞)
雨在風中 風在雨裡
你的影子在我腦海搖曳
雨下不停風 風吹不斷雨
風靜雨停 仍揮不去想念的你
看小雨搖曳 看不到你的身影
聽微風低吟 聽不到你的聲音
眼睛不看 耳朵不聽
你是我所有的回憶….
"You are all my memory is"
The rain is in the wind, the wind is in the rain
Your figure is waving in my mind
Rain couldn’t calm the wind, wind couldn’t stop the rain
When wind diminishes, rain ceases, you are still in my mind…
Watching the drizzles falling, can’t see you…
Listening the wind humming, can’t hear you…
Won’t look, won’t hear
All my memory left is of you
(Translation: Wendy Wang)
福利社裏面什麼都有 就是口袋裏沒有半毛錢
諸葛四郎和魔鬼黨 到底誰搶到那支寶劍
隔壁班的那個女孩 怎麼還沒經過我的窗前
嘴裏的零食 手裏的漫畫 心裏初戀的童年
沒有人知道為什麼 太陽總下到山的那一邊
沒有人能夠告訴我 山裏面有沒有住著神仙
多少的日子裏 總是一個人面對著天空發呆
就這麼好奇 就這麼幻想 這麼孤單的童年
總是要等到睡覺前 才知道功課只作了一點點
總是要等到考試以後 才知道該唸的書都沒有唸
一寸光陰一寸金 老師說過寸金難買寸光陰
一天又一天 一年又一年 迷迷糊糊的童年
一天又一天 一年又一年 盼望長大的童年
Morning … it is gloomy outside, going to rain with strong wind. We all read about the disaster in Burma, the typhoon … i do not read news, that is all the little knowledge i hv regarding the disaster. Also, the quake in China. Again, i hv no knowledge about it … just heard ’someone’ reporting it in staff room. Yup, i hv pulled myself AWAY from newspaper … it is not something new. I hv done that with great ’success’ that at a point, for few months i do not know what is happening in the whole world. I m confined to my own world, struggling to free myself from the ‘illussions’ i m facing. Many of things i m doing seems to be NOT real.
For example, the coming OPEN DAY — again, i drag to be "maths projects" for the sake of exibition to SHOW to some VIPs our knowledge in Maths? In real, NOTHING that they learned could be applied just yet. And me as a Maths graduate could not even come out with our own ideas on the so-called projects. Yes, it is a good exposure to SOME students. Most in the group do NOTHING, anyway. BUt in their testimonial, they want it to decorate with "OPEN DAY" Maths project … something like that, which making me feel ‘unreal’ and ‘frustrated’. Stupid society teaching our students to follow the trend — do nothing, get the name and shout it out!!
Anyway, i m diverted again … lets drop the open day issue. My mind is not functioning for a month or so now. I could see that i m struggling to find the vocab while writing. the flow simply not there to blog/write. Pardon me … i m in drugs. Hmmm …
The moment i enjoy most is the early morning(dusk) when i will wake up about 5am(no longer 4am … i dropped reading biz-news too) … sitting still staring at the ceiling/walls and observing my breath. I m trying to learn to meditate — it is hard. I couldnt still my mind as it floats to many things that stress me down. I can feel that i m tired — emotionally. But, once i m on the move, i know i hv plenty of things to do … my blog pages is a place/venue for me to speak to myself …. i m trying to be sane in the midst of this insanity.
——pause ——
橄欖樹 or here <— one of the classic. This one is by Qi Yu. Yan-Zi sang this song too. Many others but Qi Yu snag this the best. I heard of her song "走在雨中 = walking under the rain by 作詞：李泰祥 作曲：李泰祥 演唱：齊豫" over the astro that day … making me to miss her, Qi Yu. Her is the translation of the song. Haha. I never understand the meaning of the lyrics, yet i can sing the whole song since i was … err 15? Hmm … wow! More than 20 yrs ago!
橄欖樹 <— YanZi’s version or by 費玉清
作詞：三毛
作曲：李泰祥
不要問我從哪裡來 我的故鄉在遠方
為什麼流浪 流浪遠方 流浪
為了天空飛翔的小鳥 為了山間清流的小溪
為了寬闊的草原 流浪遠方 流浪
還有 還有 為了夢中的橄欖樹 橄欖樹
我的故鄉在遠方
Don’t ask from where I have come
My home is far, far away
Why do you wander so far
Wander so far, wander so far
For the little bird flying in the sky
For the blue brook running in the mountain
For the broad meadow green and wide
I wander, wander so far
Then, is there more?
Yes, for the Olive tree of my dream
Don’t ask from where I have come
My home is far, far away
Why do you wander?
Why do you wander so far?
Far, far away
For the Olive tree of my dream
Don’t ask from where I have come
My home is far, far away
Why do you wander so far
Wander so far, wander so far
當我走在淒清的路上
天空正飄著濛濛細雨
在這寂寞黯淡的暮色裡
想起我們相別在雨中
不禁悲從心中生
當我獨自徘徊在雨中
大地孤寂沈沒在黑夜裡
雨絲就像她柔軟的細髮
深深繫住我心的深處
分不清這是雨還是淚
記起我們相見在雨中
那微微細雨落在我們頭髮上
啊 往事說不盡
就像山一樣高好像海一樣深
甜蜜綺麗彩虹般美麗往事
說不盡就像山一樣高
好像海一樣深
甜蜜綺麗彩虹般美麗往事
TEH
morning … i was busy finishing the exams draft of INTI FINAL EXAMS, and still got one more to set — the RESIT paper. The due date is next week. No joke … it’s a lot of works teaching in INTI(without bonus or increments for past 6 yrs!) … besides the cramped staff-room(and the stress amounted by Mr Wong, the boss). We have to set two full-set of exams paper, final and resit, every semesters(3 semesters x 2 = 6 sets!) WITH FULL SOLUTIONS given! That is only for one subject you are teaching. An average lecturer will teach about 3/4 subjects, which explains WHY many left(including the lazy me! Haha) the college. The number of students has increased after i left(as i chased away students? LOL).
Phew! In a way, i m glad i made the right decision to come to Sinaran … it is greener here. Another 2 or 3 of my ex-colleague friends interested to join IS. Once we move to new campus, we will need more teaching staff(and admin too). Perhaps, the proposal of INTI combined with IS might come true, one day? Then, i will hv many friends in my working envirionment! At least they know and have accepted how ‘authentic’ i am! Haha. *blush*
Mother day’s gone … phew. I will be very stressed with all these human-made days!! You name it, they will have it … from the Jan1st–new year day … then valentine day, mother’s/father’s day easter day, wesak day coming, of course keamatan day(which they do not menuai anymore … but use this opportunity to celebrate, anyway! More on that before end of May), oh yes … birthday! Hmm … friendship day? The school will have graduation day, open day, xxx day. Arrghhh … we have "pi" day on March 14th(pi = 3.1415 …), whatever day …
oh yes, i forgotten … teacher’s day is coming! Hmm … How many of us really have the REAL feellings for all these so-called special days we are celebrating?! Call me what-ever you want, i do not think so we deserve all the celebrations without further understanding of the significance of the days! Hmm … married people will HAVE TO remember their wedding anniversary … etc etc … yes, anniversaries are those days you supposed to remember, otherwise you will be seen as stupid ‘ignorant’?? Haha
Trading : The super-bull on steel-related counters. I missed the boat by selling off my Kinsteel, and i hv been eyeing LionInd/LionCor for 2 months, yet what is holding me back from going into it? silliness … inexperienced shown! Sigh. I will learn from this, hopefully. Steels companies are up by 30-60% at the moment after the announcement of the abolishment of the ceiling price of steel! Hmm … i m too busy to read my tonnes of news … perhaps, i need time to pause. Will give KLCI a total skip till next month. There is someone saying another correction will be done in june/july. Should i wait till then and get back into the market?
Beeeeep ….
Bowling
This Thu i will be available to play at Sutera! Yeah!! I will take the game as a practice, then i need to squad for next weekend final. I think i hv a fair chance to be in top 10. Aiming high to be in top 5, i need to maintain 190 average for the 10-pin(over 6 games) and then go all out to score in my favourite 9-pin tap(another 6 games). But, firstly … i need to qualify. I think i should be very high socres to qualify. I will try that this weekend.
Thomas Cup/Uber Cup
I read that Korean team "gave" up their group ties in order to increase their chances(not to meet china or indonesia). Manipulation in sports? Hmm … where is the sportmanship?? I watched last night the women Uber team beat the Japanese! Malaysian ladies surely improved. They will be up against the Koreans next. China surely will win the UBER cup, anyway. NO excitement in Thomas or Uber cup as only a few countries being able to really give CHINA challenges. Malaysia has an outside chances to upset China?!
Liverpool
With MU crowned the EPL champ again, everyone is talking about the clash in Moscow. I was reading in Liverpool’s website that they are selling many ‘old’ timers. Crouch, Riise, Kewell, Pennant, … who will they bring in to make the REDS stronger next year? Will they be fighting for 4th spot again?
EPL is another boring league(Keegan agreed) as only a few RICH power-house dominating the top spots of the league — it will be MU, Chelsea, Arsenal and Liverpool again next season. So predictable that it does not generate interest in me … more reasons to give EPL a total skip next season!!
Running
I jogged last week … i can feel a sharp pain on my left knee. Yeah … i gave up marathon/walkaton 10yrs ago after i injured my knee … doctor said i need to do ‘minor’ operation on it (that minor ops will cost me around rm3000+). So, I took up bowling instead. Well, i dont think so i will take part in KK first marathon in OCT. But, the 7k run by the Sutera should be interesting …
TEH
morning … it is friday. On Monday, school reopens. Hmm … i did not do anything at all except marking papers and my tuition classes. I m here to start to do my SOW(scheme of work) which expired months ago! I need to update it from week 1 JAN08. Haha. Ok … i m reluctant to do paper work(for the sake of doing, without any values!). In fact, no one will read what i m going to type! Hmm …
sutera league
anyway, last night i played bowling!! Yeah … it has been 3 weeks since i played in Sutera league. We hv one new-comer, Isaac Russell! Arghh … how could they let Malaysia player to play in a small league with us? Hm … wait, he is a sarawakian. What is he doing in KK? I was bowling in the lane beside his(luckily he is playing for a weak team, but with him in their team, surely they will climb up) … whoossshh … his is really fully with talent but perhaps too big-headed? Otherwise, he should be playing regularly in Malaysia bowling team! Hmm … Malaysia bowling team is of WORLD standard, mind u.
Well, while i played my average 180+ game, he easily played 218 average! WOW. We were up against Jeffery team, and he played an impressive 207 average too. He will be playing for Sukma soon. Luckily we played well and won 3-1 to maintain our second position. Me and Fred are at 190 average level currently.
Trading
Jaks 0.75, Ranhill 1.54, Liondiv 1.48(new interest in LION group?), Scomi 1.01
Hv to go for tuition class now.
TEH
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