An Unconventional Teacher

Morning … it is gloomy outside, going to rain with strong wind. We all read about the disaster in Burma, the typhoon … i do not read news, that is all the little knowledge i hv regarding the disaster. Also, the quake in China. Again, i hv no knowledge about it … just heard ’someone’ reporting it in staff room. Yup, i hv pulled myself AWAY from newspaper … it is not something new. I hv done that with great ’success’ that at a point, for few months i do not know what is happening in the whole world. I m confined to my own world, struggling to free myself from the ‘illussions’ i m facing. Many of things i m doing seems to be NOT real.

For example, the coming OPEN DAY — again, i drag to be "maths projects" for the sake of exibition to SHOW to some VIPs our knowledge in Maths? In real, NOTHING that they learned could be applied just yet. And me as a Maths graduate could not even come out with our own ideas on the so-called projects. Yes, it is a good exposure to SOME students. Most in the group do NOTHING, anyway. BUt in their testimonial, they want it to decorate with "OPEN DAY" Maths project … something like that, which making me feel ‘unreal’ and ‘frustrated’. Stupid society teaching our students to follow the trend — do nothing, get the name and shout it out!!

Anyway, i m diverted again … lets drop the open day issue. My mind is not functioning for a month or so now. I could see that i m struggling to find the vocab while writing. the flow simply not there to blog/write. Pardon me … i m in drugs. Hmmm …

The moment i enjoy most is the early morning(dusk) when i will wake up about 5am(no longer 4am … i dropped reading biz-news too) … sitting still staring at the ceiling/walls and observing my breath. I m trying to learn to meditate — it is hard. I couldnt still my mind as it floats to many things that stress me down. I can feel that i m tired — emotionally. But, once i m on the move, i know i hv plenty of things to do … my blog pages is a place/venue for me to speak to myself …. i m trying to be sane in the midst of this insanity.

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橄欖樹 or here <— one of the classic. This one is by Qi Yu. Yan-Zi sang this song too. Many others but Qi Yu snag this the best. I heard of her song "走在雨中 = walking under the rain by 作詞：李泰祥　作曲：李泰祥　演唱：齊豫" over the astro that day … making me to miss her, Qi Yu. Her is the translation of the song. Haha. I never understand the meaning of the lyrics, yet i can sing the whole song since i was … err 15? Hmm … wow! More than 20 yrs ago!

橄欖樹 <— YanZi’s version or by 費玉清

作詞：三毛
作曲：李泰祥