morning … risse scored his own goal in last minute — 1-1. Not a score to lift up my downward feelings. Anyway, will NOT watch the second league.

going for my class and papers to mark.

I will bounce back, soon.

In the mean while …

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WHY cant i get away from this rat-race and join some NGOs to do things close to my heart? :(

I hv deleted all the e-mail. Yup, some kept for >10 yrs … some from significant people, some jokes/comics, some forwarding pictures … everything! My inbox is empty. Perhaps, that is how i m feeling at the moment — empty. Empty doesnt mean lonely. My heart will be empty if i continue to follow the flow of the society surrounds me. Sorry, i dont think so they are stupid(as i will always spit-out) but i m being viewed as stupid. STUPID for not being to fit in the rat-race … STUPID for not be able to use my stupid high-iq into good use. STUPID as i refused to follow many un-written rules placed. STUPID, yes i m.

if stupidity is subjective, what else are not?

I have a dream … a goal. To provide enough for my family. I want to earn more than enough … so that, at one point of my life, i could LET GO of everything in my lives … detaching myself from all these dis-illussion of the modern world i m struggling to breathe.

I could only keep it close to my heart … it is calling. And the vibrations of the voice are getting claerer … i could feel that it is bursting. I need air to breathe. My surrounding is sucking away the little air that i needed … i m suffocating …

1.30pm

Sorry KK … even clown has his off day, i guess. Listening to the sentimental chinese songs … nice. Dont worry, of coz i m fine. Just want to take a break and mark my papers … i noticed that i DISLIKE paper-work very much. So, i will see how i could RUN away from stacks of my paper-loads. Hmm … wish i could recycle ALL the papers on my desk! Haha.

Ok … i smiled. Good. Meeting at 2pm, classes 4 - 6pm, then 7.30-9.30pm.

I m going thru a motion … wish i could stale the moment, take pictures of the moment and write a story based on that! LOL

2.45pm

MASISWA game is this weekend — badminton to begin this fri. Yes, KK … it is fucked screwed up … deleted on 24th April 9.30am …

TEH