An Unconventional Teacher

EARTH DAY on 22nd April 2008.

Morning … my Maths paper exams right now. After this, i will hv 150sheets to mark! Arghh … iu couldnt be blamed if i take more coffee than i should this week, k?

I m lost … i dont know what to write now as too many things cloud-ing my mind. From the marking of papers, Scheme of Work, Visit from the Australian SAM’s Dr Tony … to trading, songs, Liverpool CL, bowling … i m simply LOST!

I think i hv my hands full of things i need to do. Sometimes, i feel of pausing … seeking into my heart. Pray … and let Lord be the guidance. I could claim that i could manage many of the things thrown to me … but is that what i really want? At times, i feel so frustrated with my surroundings and it seems that NO ONE understood what i m doing. No one to listen to my concern … thus, i prayed. I prayed yesterday morning … but i dont seem to hv the serenity that i look for.

I looked-into Regina(my ex-SC president … the first female president! Hats-off!) blog and found this nice cool song …

Forgive Me … by Group 1 crew. <— found it in youtube. Will see if i could download it?

Father, I’m going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain’t getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne

I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win
I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning

I’m calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart’s been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home

The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can’t take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home

Chorus:
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left, Lord please
Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left

I’ve come to terms that I’m burning both sides of the rope
And I’m hoping that self-control would kick in before I’m choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I’ll never make it I’m not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn’t do it I would lose it there’s no point to the fight
And I’m writing this song, for the people who don’t belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that’s filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It’s annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn’t pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there’s no crying
I’m dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul

Lord I don’t know what I’m struggling for
There’s go to be more
Than this life I know
But still I’m here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through

copied from http://www.xanga.com/Gina_Butterfly

Regina : Yeah … thanks for your encouragement. Ok, i shall run the 10k and challenge my old body. Target is to complete the 10k in below an hour. Hmm … I shall get the running shoe this week! Yeah!! Yeap, will start scuba-dive this year! Hehe.

Oh yes … unintentionally, i registered with xanga … http://www.xanga.com/cpteh. Hmm … i will be empty till i shift-webhome again. LOL. WOW!! I could upload a song at Xanga … can i do the same here using blogsome?

http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/s/stephanie_sun_yan_zi/yu_jian.html <— uploaded this song in my new xanga! Haha

I cant wait for the semester break again! Yeah … simply love holiday(who dont?!). I hv so many personal things to do …

My Tenants

I hv two new boys sharing a room for the past one month or so now … they are OK, except they smoke and throw the cig-butts everywhere they like, they play pc game from the moment they are back till dawn … etc etc. Otherwise, they are OK. It is always difficult to stay with ‘outsiders’ as we will always hv our own ways. Compromise is needed. Till the day i could afford to buy a place for my family to call …. HOME.

Quotes sent to my e-mail by Josephine. She is only person sending ALL the IS staff something personal in our official @institut-sinaran.edu.my e-mail. Nice …

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