morning …i was here early — 6.45am as i woke up around 5am.

Trading

Ranhill 2.33 —> 2.08, Jaks 1.42 —> 1.21, LionDiv 1.81 —> 1.59

Well, i do not hv time to read my biz-paper, so it is not a choice. Exams is nearing … market is crashing, so i need to be prepare to BUY a few more babes — thinking of PROPERTY. Penny stocks … and many still sliding down. The whole Asia market is tumbking down due to FEAR of recession in America. Are you dare enough to move in when people pulling out? Guts!

Slowing down?

I hv just reported losing my CC. Actually, i think i misplaced it. Tried to find it at the common places i put it but … sigh … Mag said i m really forgetful. Actually I m too occupied with the coming Leadership Camp and KLSE that is diving. Also very much occupied with thoughts regarding politics … cant help it, election is nearing, yet SABAH DAP did not send me any signal that they need my help. Thinking of Keadilan, but TIME constrains … yeeee … am i moving back into the pace i was in back in KL? That will push me further away from city … perhaps i was thinking of settling in Ranau(seriously, i m planning to get a place there … rear my own chicks and vege). I m getting tired of the pace … perhaps, NZ? Hmm … nice cold place … chilling …

Oh yes, I got a new comment from a newbie … I DO NOT WELCOME ANYONE INTO MY SPACE. PLEASE READ ALL MY PREVIOUS POSTS RIGHT FROM OCT 2007(if possible, search for my blogs since 1999) .. I M TOO ABSURD FOR YOUR NORMAL BRAIN.

So, you read me well now … then, GET LOST.

I hope i hv pushed many off(i hv done that many times in my life .. especially when i was in KL). I dislike the hypocrisy of OUR SOCIETY. I dislike the press … i dislike attention given. SO SHUT UP. GET LOST.

BUt, i like sharing my points in MY OWN BLOG … for my own viewing! LOL. SELF-CENTERED la tu … *yawn*.

I m not tactful with people … very BAD PR. I m too straight or frank. Perhaps, i shouldnt. Perhaps … hmm  … who cares!

Need to "Listen to your heart" <— wow! this song rocks.

9am

When i m kinda blank, i will like to surf others blog. Well, i dont read much locals but many good blogs from people around the www given me insight of other-sides perpective. Here is one …

surfing blogs … http://postgradyear.blogspot.com/

(the following is an actual email sent to my discussion leader)

Ms. Tillman,

Please don’t misconstrue my tone as rude, abrasive, or challenging in any way. I come humbled, merely asking if I am actually getting a zero on last week’s writing assignment because I posted an hour and a half late. I just looked at the gradebook, and after the missed assignment the week before, it’d be a bit devastating to have back to back zeros, despite me earning them. I could offer excuses, but that would just be pathetic (it’s my job’s fault, scout’s honor). What if I fingerpainted you a "World’s Greatest Graduate Assistant" banner to hang above your desk? Or I could crank out some more construction paper flowers with green pipe cleaner stems, like the ones I made my valentine?

After reading the syllabus, it just seems that I could’ve lied and said my internet wasn’t working, printed it out and handed it in on Wednesday and gotten full credit. I fully understand that you have an obligation to teach me the error of my ways, but wouldn’t "honesty is virtuous" be a much greater lesson for me to learn? Don’t answer right away, but really spend some time to reflect on the impact you would be making on my life, and then visualize the envious eyes of your graduate peers as they stand facing your desk and sigh, defeated, while reading in bold, fingerpainted letters that it is indeed the one and only Kacy Tillman who reigns supreme over all others.

Brian Hall

My Thoughts

It is interesting to note that this blogger was being calmly sarcastic to his lecturer. LOL. Yup, I hv written a letter to one of my professor regarding his terrible teaching of Maths. He failed me … my Prolog Programming in year 3, UM. The lecturer(name withheld due to security reasons! LOL) did not really teach anything except asking us to PHOTOSTAT a text book and do assignments/projects base on that book! Wow … how i wish i could teach THAT way. Haha. Senang man, makan gaji buta(easy — free lunch, for my Canadian/European e-buddies. Sorry that i used some Malay words without reflecting on my audience! Thx Turfviking for pointing that out. Cool, man)

Anyway, the letter was never mentioned but i believe he knew WHO I AM — he looked at me with disapproval. Hmm … we cant point out FACTS or TRUTH?

In my years of teaching, I do receive many letters from my students before. The most recent one was last SEPT 07. Some letters to compliment my teachings(we dont hv hp to sms 15 yrs ago, u know) … many cards which i kept(till 2001 when i came to KK). A few "love" letters(LOL … i was blushing!) and also … one special lengthy letter from a girl student(it is special as i took it as an inspiration to be a better person). Will I get more letters? Hmm … hopefully NOT. Just SMS la … or messages in my cyber-space.

I do reply some of the letters if i feel i need to put my point of views. These days i get e-mails from students. Some shared with me their lives in ourseas … etc … i like pictures

Teamwork

Though i will talk about team-work … most of the cases in my life, I prefer to work alone. Hmm … no no … rephrase - people dont like me in their team as i m the out-cast(like this gang, man). LOL. But, chances is that I will DOMINATE the group! hehe